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Wednesday, 20 May 2009

  • Free-Falling.

    So...We all know those dreams where you're falling, right??  Well, how about the ones where you're skydiving and your parachute won't open?  Or you're bungee jumping and the cord snaps and breaks??  What about the one where you're hundreds of feet above the ground riding a unicycle on a tightrope, all the while juggling fire?  Oh, and there's no safety net...just the cold hard ground welcoming death to those who dare slip...THIS IS MY LIFE.  I don't know how to ride a unicycle, and I sure as heck can't juggle...so why am I way up here on a tiny wire trying to do it all!?!

    ...Okay...So I'm up here on this tightrope, clueless as to what I'm doing and things just start going wrong.   The wind starts blowing, the unicycle sways, my hands falter, and I fall.  And I keep falling...but now...I've come to a conclusion.

    ...Those seconds that I'm falling...are the greatest.  At that point, I have nothing else to lose.  The feeling of nothing holding me back and the fear of not knowing exactly how it will end...are ABSOLUTELY THRILLING!!  Who knows?, I could die on impact...or I could be a modern day miracle and walk away from the fall untouched.  This is my life now...

    ...I'm free falling.  Nothing is there to stop me...no wires, no chutes, no nets.  Just the slight chance that someone will come out of nowhere and catch me...and still, there's no guarantee that that someone won't be crushed underneath me when I come crashing down.  Oh well, I'm really loving these last few seconds before I hit the ground.

Wednesday, 25 February 2009

  • Waldo. And Jonah. And Us.

    Ok...so...blogging...I do not do...but I must...blog about this. I just have so much to say....and absolutely none of it is logical....but again...I shall blog about this because my heart feels so heavy...

    God teaches me so so much all of the time...through stuff that you would never even think of....God is pretty creative...So..... I work at this daycare. Woo Hoo! No...really...it's like one big ball of fun...and today was so amazing. I read the story Jonah and the Whale to my kids. I am a church kid, and therefore, have heard this story so so many times that I'm kind of numb to it now...but if you think about it....like...really...think about it....a whale swallowing a human and then spitting him back up...pretty amazing. Or interesting anyway.....Anyway...this book was called Waldo and Jonah...Ha ha....they named the whale Waldo...ha ha ha..I thought it was pretty funny. And the very first line is something like: There once was a whale named Waldo. And God asked Waldo to help Him in a very special mission. *book...blah blah blah...whale swallows Jonah. blah blah blah......more book...Jonah prays to God while he's in the whale...* and then the last page says: God said to Waldo, Thank you Waldo. You are my special helper and I love you! .....I love that part!! At first it made me laugh a whole lot but then God spoke to me...and I mean...seriously...taught me something important. It's like...God created EVERYTHING...the waves on the beach, the whale, the stars...and US. And we are the only ones that he gave free will or choice to.  So...really...I know this is a kid's book...so I know that God didn't literally say to Waldo that He needed his help...but God didn't really have to...He created Waldo so all He really had to do was think the thought...and then the whale just does it. He had no choice in the matter....he was just created...to swallow Jonah.  And then...He of course fulfilled his purpose....because the God of the Universe created him specifically to swallow Jonah. And that's all.  Have you ever wondered why we are the only ones that God gave free will to?? I mean...I know that if He forced us to love Him...It really wouldn't be love...But then again...We are the only ones to screw up the universe because of that free will thing.  God just thinks the thought and that's it...the waves continue to crash upon the beaches, the stars continue to hang in the sky, and the universe continues to remain in perfect balance. They don't CHOOSE to do these things...they just do...because that's what God created them for and that's the end.  We, however, don't get TOLD or COMMANDED to do anything....We get a choice....and so often....we screw that up.  If you think about it...we are nothing more than the waves that He created to crash against the beaches, or the stars that He created to give the sky light, or even Waldo the Whale that He created to swallow Jonah to bring him back to Himself. .....so why can we not just listen when He speaks to us...do exactly what He says...and then give HIM the glory? After all...that's what we WERE created for.    Make sense?? I hope so.

Wednesday, 24 December 2008

  • Sup? I joined xanga to be Shannon's favorite kid. Unfortunately, He is my only friend on xanga...bc no one actually has a xanga account. Yayyy for me!

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